Monday, 24 November 2008

death

Many things happened recently: First things first, i joined a close friend to open a factory. And yes, i am working 2 jobs. marine Inspector and also running the startup of this business. its not that i need the money but i feel i needed to do some sort of business. Secondly, Jason bought his new BMW 7 series. i totally digg it.

Guess what? i signed another policy with Manulife insurance. THEY REJECTED ME this time. I WENT for a medical check up. NO i don have AIDS. but the enzymes in my liver is 6 times above the average person and they are refusing to insure me. I have booked for Ultra sound with a specialist. The doctor was saying it was severe alcohol abuse over a long period of time. And for the first time in my life, I am Afraid. i am scared. What am i to do without getting high? secondly, my health.. i still have a daughter. I have stopped drinking since a week. Jes says its an addiction. I cant fight this tempttion. I am attending church regularly now. I suddenly fear death. I believe God with do his part.

I opened 5 bottles of Chivas/Whiskey this 2 weeks alone. I gotta stop this splurging. I still have 1 bottle at Insomnia(Chijmes). i wish i could down it. wish.. wishful part of me.. fast cars.. women.. high..does it reali fufill my life? i reckon. for now.